Sunday, November 27, 2011

Seeking the backwards "N"

Today is Advent 1. Happy New Year! I had the priviledge of preaching at our 11:15 service at St. Anne's. Below if the rough copy of what I preached. I went off notes quite a bit, but this will give you a general idea of the message conveyed. I hope you enjoy. Scripture: Mark 13:24-37


When I was growing up there was a little church near my house that we would pass on the way to the store. For about 15 years they had a sign that read, “Jesus is coming soon, are you ready?” it was on one of those deli sign boards with the removable letters. // The reason it stood out was not because of the message, but because the “N” in “soon” was backwards. // For 15 years this sight amused and fascinated me. “If Jesus really is coming soon, you had better flip that ‘N’ around.” // But, if the “N” wasn’t backwards I probably wouldn’t have taken much notice then, and I surely wouldn’t remember it now. // So, I now wonder, did some clever little old lady do it on purpose to give us pause? …to force us to “keep awake”? Whatever the reason, I was a little bit sad when I went home for a visit a few years back and discovered that there is a new message up. I don’t even remember what the sign says now, but I miss that backwards “N.”

During the hustle and bustle of the commercial Christmas season, I think we all need a backwards “N” in our lives to make us stop long enough to ask, are we ready?

It has always struck me as somewhat odd that the prepares of our lectionary –the people who decide which Bible readings we will have each week- start the first week of Advent, the beginning of the new church year, with readings about the “end times.” The reading from Mark points toward the end times, it speaks of the coming messiah, “the son of man,” whose coming will mark the beginning of the end. The reading feels especially bleak: “heaven and earth will pass away.” But these predications also point toward hope: Hope that the messiah is coming. Advent is a season of waiting; but unlike our Advent calendars claim, we are not simply waiting for December 25th, we are perpetually waiting for the Messiah who, as our Eucharistic prayer reminds us, “Will come again.”

For many people, Advent, or in their minds –the Christmas season— began this past Friday. We have been socialized to wait for our Lord by purchasing gifts and getting deep discounts on items we may, or may not, need. Holiday shopping has become a sporting event that starts on “black Friday” and ends sometime in mid-January when the post-Christmas sales events end. Retailers take advantage of the fact that many folks have the day after Thanksgiving as a holiday from work to encourage people to take out their checkbooks. The social tone set by Western media and commercial industries is one of frenzy. The tone suggests that there isn’t a moment to spare because “our loved ones are expecting presents, and these deals won’t last.”  // Somewhere along the line the preparation for Christmas became about preparation for parties and gift giving rather than preparation for God to enter our hearts and our world.

As Christians, we are instructed to keep our eyes focused further in the future. For us, Christmas is not the end; it is just the beginning. //

Can you imagine being a Jew in the years before Jesus’ birth? The prophesies of the Hebrew Scriptures foretold the coming of a Messiah from the line of David, but they gave no timeline. // The people were just faithfully living out their lives waiting for the promise to come. It must have been difficult to believe that a Messiah was actually going to come. I am sure that many of them did not believe it would ever happen. // Our lives now mirror the lives of the people who lived in the years before Jesus came. It has been 2000 years: maybe God forgot that we were promised a second coming? Maybe the translators got it wrong or the authors embellished Jesus’ words? // Maybe. // Or maybe, we are supposed to wait. //

The readings assigned for Advent 1 may seem out of place at first glace, but when we consider our statement of belief with which we respond each week in the Eucharistic prayer, we are constantly reminding ourselves that “Christ has died, Christ has risen, Christ will come again.” // The attitude of frenzy that is encouraged by our social world is the exact opposite of the one we proclaim in our faith, and often in our daily lives.

How often have you heard the phrase, “Live life one day at a time”? How many times have you advised a friend or relative to focus on this moment? // You see, while our path is perpetually headed over the horizon, if we never take a moment to look around at where we are right now we will trip on the rocks under our feet. // The instruction to “keep awake” that is issued in the gospel reading is not intended to feed the holiday frenzy. God already knows that we are awake and running: we are just trying to keep up with a society that insists toddlers need datebooks if they want to see their friends. We are trying meet the expectations set by marketing firms for appropriate holiday gifts for the people we love. We are trying to keep ahead of the trends, // to help our children become successful, // to be all that we can possibly be. And we are trying to do all of this, all of the time. // In fact, we spend so much time “trying,” that I wonder how much time we actually spend “doing.”

It is exhausting to “try” all the time. Trying implies an external influence that has set a standard we must achieve. Trying implies that we might fail. // Doing, on the other hand, is a positive action. It implies confidence in ourselves and our abilities. Doing shows the world that we know what we want and we are acting to achieve an end. // But how do we go from “trying” to “doing”?

We are creatures of habit and it would be nearly impossible to rewire ourselves to a point where we are able to block out all external influences in order to “just do it” without still spinning our minds thinking about the “right way.” // So what if instead of trying to forget about the opinions and pressures of external forces, instead we do something to change it? // What is we choose to let God’s standard be the standard that we try to meet: not the media’s, not the politicians’, not our parents’, not our children’s… not even our own. // What if God’s standard were the only one we focused on?

Advent is a season of expectant waiting. Unlike waiting for a bus or waiting in a check out line, Advent is a season of waiting that offers us opportunities to do things to prepare our lives for the arrival of our Lord. We can pray. We can choose to keep our hearts open for the coming of the messiah. We can help those who may be in pain this season. We can wait, actively. //Waiting in our modern day Western world is often seen as a negative thing. When we have to stand in the check out line too long we tap our foot impatiently and glare at the man who is writing a check instead of swiping his card. We look scathingly at the cashier as if to say, “hurry up and stop wasting our time.” // There is the old phrase “Good things come to those who wait” but I find that it is used to pacify people who are already frustrated with the delayed gratification they seek.

If we rearranged our standards to which we measured ourselves and our efforts to God’s standards we would hear, “Well done, good and faithful servant” much more often. // When we think about the words God would use to describe us “beloved child,” “one with charisms granted by the Holy Spirit,” or “created in my image” then we see that as long as we are doing our very best with right intention, then we have already succeeded. // Wouldn’t that feel amazing? To know that our best is good enough.// //

Photo Courtesy of
the Rev. Lauren Kilbourn
Rather than being frustrated with the wait for our Lord, or feeling rushed along by the commercial Christmas pushed on us by society let’s prepare in this season of waiting by seeking that backwards “N” in our lives. // If we are rushing along we won’t see the backwards “N;” the thing that will cause us to pause and consider this very moment. The journey of waiting that we are on, brothers and sisters, does not end on December 25th. The journey may not even end in our lifetime. // So what’s the hurry? // Slow down, keep awake, pay attention: Something amazing is going to happen and we will miss it if we keep running around. // So go home and ask yourself, am I ready to have my heart broken open by God? // And if the answer is no, then I encourage you to take stock of what you can do to prepare yourself, because Jesus is coming soon, and His birth will change you if you let it.


Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Choosing an Advent Discipline

Lent is the time you give something up, or take on a spiritual discipline, as a way of recognizing the penitential season of waiting before Easter. I really don’t understand why we don’t have the same tradition in Advent. Advent is also a penitential season of waiting. It is not a time to celebrate the joy of Christmas; it is the time to walk reverently and with hope, following the star toward the promise of a birth.

This Advent I am leading a group at my field education parish for those folks who have a difficult time during Advent and Christmas. Last year I attended a “Blue Christmas” service at St. Philip’s in Laurel, MD --- it was a lovely service that met me where I was and helped me to see a new possibility for Advent. As someone who has experienced a great loss during the Christmas season, Advent and Christmas have been extremely emotionally taxing for the last several years. I decided to take the idea of “Blue Christmas” and extend it further. The group I am leading invites people from various backgrounds to come together and wait together, feeling the feelings we have rather than the feelings we are told we should have. We will share in our grief and our hope as we walk slowly through a world that is running. The group will culminate with a Blue Advent healing Eucharist with a liturgy that I am writing.

So this Advent I have decided to treat the season a little like Lent. I am removing distractions from my life and replacing them with gentleness and mercy for my soul. I am reading prayers by Desmond Tutu, Dietrich Bonheoffer, and Henri Nouwen. I am waiting for the miracle that is coming. The thing about waiting is that waiting in the bible is always an active thing. It isn’t like missing the bus and then needing to just sit on the bench waiting for the next one to come by: waiting for Christ requires preparation of our hearts and our lives so that there will be room for the Joy that is on the horizon.

I write this as I prepare my heart this week for the coming of Advent. We have the luxury of knowing that a season of waiting is drawing close, and that foreknowledge is a gift that we are given. What we do with the gift is up to us. So yes, I am writing about Advent waiting before Advent even begins. It is my hope that I may use this week to prepare my heart to wait patiently and counter-culturally. Advent Conspiracy is one resource if you are considering how you would like to reclaim the season of Advent in your life. There are many others out there. I encourage you to spend this week deciding: What do you intend to do with your time of waiting?

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Bishops and Delegates and Fenway, oh my!

Bishop Bud on the score board
This weekend was the annual Diocese of Massachusetts convention. As a senior in seminary, this year's convention was especially important for me to attend. I came armed, with business cards at the ready, with a goal of being an extrovert for the whole weekend. It was actually quite fun. Friday's events were more subdued with little business and more reports, worship, and imagining for the future of the diocese. It was a short afternoon because Bishop Bud's retirement extravaganza was to be held that evening at FENWAY PARK!

You heard me right, I got to spend Friday night at Fenway... but you'll have to wait to hear about that...
Bishop Bud and me... his collar is autographed by Wally the Green Monster!
Dorothella, Steph, and I couldn't find seats inside, but that
meant we got to eat outside looking over the field.
The most important part of convention this year was the opportunity to connect, and reconnect, with the people who are going to be my colleagues in ministry next year. I was able to sit down with one of my mentors who helped me focus my vision for ministry and think critically about the job search ahead. I got to give hugs to my church family whom I have missed tremendously. I was able to meet some amazing people who are doing great things to further Christ's kingdom in Massachusetts and beyond. I even got to learn about some great assistant rector opportunities that are coming open this year. After passing out nearly all the business cards I came to Boston with, I am feeling hopeful and excited about coming home next year!

Our view during dinner.

Oh, and yes, I might have eaten dinner in the Pavillion at Fenway... 3 stories above home plate. It was very neat! Bishops Tom and Gayle sang Bud a song and folks told wonderful stories about his ministry with us. Bud is an incredible man and I am sad that he is retiring, but after meeting his family I am excited that they will get to spend more time with him.